Envy

Sometimes I very envy guys that only love their first love and no one else.

But such rare person, can't to find right?

Family

No longer the family style of working environment was saddening to me. Sometimes, I very envy people who can post their feeling, thoughts,etc in Facebook. To me, I cant!

I hope I can pass 3 modules out of the 4 so that I can graduate within my intention timeframe and proceed to what I want in life.

Photos

A photo speaks a thousand words. Looking back at the photos on Facebook was a saddening issue.

First relationship

So maybe, it is always hard to forget ur first relationship.

I am thankful that we both were once together, despite there is sadness and happiness too. I am also thankful that u r sensible to my needs. Though it is not fated, those memories shall not be forgotten. Because once in my life, I love u before. (Shit, tears suddenly went down my face upon writing this).

Delete

I have just deleted photos in my hp and the same password that we use to use on our hp.

However, I keep keying in the old password.

I am still trying to get use to it.

Sometimes, I blame the world for letting us born in different country. Some of us are more fortunate while others are not and this may led to cultural shocks.

The pain is too unbearable. Guys forget those pains easily I believe. Sad sad sad.

under estimate

I under estimate the value of him in my heart. Though over but my heart is painful. Too pain to be true.

It's nice to see him move on and enjoy the happiness he is having. The less stress that the other party is giving him, the same language spoken.

In tears I have now, but I hope for tears. In this way, I think I will feel better.

I want to move on too, I hope. That few months of keeping everything in my heart that affects my health. Though I always tell myself to move on, its is in fact very hard to.

My heart is tearing in pieces

Very painful very painful..... This pain is so unbearable.

This is my only place to let out my sorrows.

Why so painful. Why do I think of the past, though I never regret my decision till date.

My brain can't think. Can't study. This is affecting me so deeply.

Pain pain pain...... Need painkillers for my heart.

Extremely painful.